Mom invited me to an afternoon tea at a local church today. We had fun. ;)

Tomtom

Some random funny pictures. Major bummed my siggy messed up on the last post, after I already messed up :( I wish we could delete stuff! Oh well, learned my lesson. Going to triple check before I send from now on, :P

^wrote that earlier.

I just got back from carissa's. Its like, 3:24 am. Late. Being with carissa and her friends became so awkward for me. Like. Its really hard for me to relate to them. At all. I fail to communicate. So I feel like a misfit or something. I don't even know why. I'm not trying to sound like some whiner. I'm sorry I did not have a mother and a father that loved me. Or lived in a family with good income. I'm sorry I need to wash my clothes at friends house's (i washed my clothes at carissa's). I'm sorry my dad didn't buy me a nice car. It makes me feel so frustrated that I feel so out of place. Especially after I was just talking about communicating. They can't relate to me, and I can't relate to them.

What the FUCK am I talking about? Am I just venting about being socially inept? Or are they just snobs? Or is it none of this, and I'm just taking everything too seriously? I have no clarity and no understanding.

Life is a vast ocean, and I'm on a piece of driftwood. No compass, no map, no help.

(I wish I could channel angst into creativity instead of boring blogs) --
And there are trapdoors
That you can't come back from

(Forgot to send pics last time- my bad! I wish we could delete entries... is it possible? Somebody tell me if you know!)

So my first two hours at work today are by myself. I'm pretty faded. What to do?

Lay down and chill in a makeshift bed! (Shown in pic)

When I'm at work my mind is in constant thought, like gears.

Communication is the key to everything.. I've been thinking about it. Things have only gotten better as we've learned to communicate more with eachother... if you think about it, we'd never argue or fight with eachother if we all understood eachother perfectly... that's why it's important to just be straight (attitude, not sexuality), honest, and open minded with everything. The problem is, straight, honest, open minded people already know and practice this. Meanwhile, arrogant close-minded folks are too busy being arrogant and close-minded to consider this is a good idea. That's the problem. :(

So now I'm at carissa's. For the 'battle of the sexes'. Actually pretty fun. Just relaxing with friends. But, I've been paying more attention to HN then my friends! Time to get lost :P (trying some 1337 html to fix my sig, sorry if it comes out poor)

--
And there are trapdoors
That you can't come back from
-- And there are trapdoors That you can't come back from

So my first two hours at work today are by myself. I'm pretty faded. What to do?

Lay down and chill in a makeshift bed! (Shown in pic)

When I'm at work my mind is in constant thought, like gears.

Communication is the key to everything.. I've been thinking about it. Things have only gotten better as we've learned to communicate more with eachother... if you think about it, we'd never argue or fight with eachother if we all understood eachother perfectly... that's why it's important to just be straight (attitude, not sexuality), honest, and open minded with everything. The problem is, straight, honest, open minded people already know and practice this. Meanwhile, arrogant close-minded folks are too busy being arrogant and close-minded to consider this is a good idea. That's the problem. :(

So now I'm at carissa's. For the 'battle of the sexes'. Actually pretty fun. Just relaxing with friends. But, I've been paying more attention to HN then my friends! Time to get lost :P (trying some 1337 html to fix my sig, sorry if it comes out poor)

--
And there are trapdoors
That you can't come back from

ME yESTERDAyyy. . . CRiMPED My HAiR =] BUT JUSS ENDED UP WEARiNq iT UP MOST THE DAyy. . ENJOyyy <3




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Geez, my sleeping schedule is extremely way off track. I'm still hanging out at my parents house for a week now because I needed a break from the city. Plus the new plasma t.v. And hanging out w my pup is great!

Last night was a night full of surprises... I was on perusing through the net and decided to swing by thefader.com....started checking out the new issue and there we were.....representing the new Ray Ban ad from SXSW! Check out the new Fader Magazine. Page 28.

Time for zzzz's. T.g.I.f. <3 Http://www.myspace.com/dessalicious -- Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick�

So, it is Friday, a day of TAFE. So, it's 1pm and I found myself on a train into the beautiful Sydney CBD with a beautiful girl. Woops! -- 5:22pm 16 May, 2008 - Love, Love. Ryan(myspace.com/p4r4d0x).

After breakfast...

Got faded with travis, bryce, and danielle. It was super hot- super lame.

Saw hoorton hears a who, or something like that. Pretty cool. a great movie for kids.

Went home, kicked it. Got picked up by lee; bounced to nicks. Smoking hookah. Just tried it; its ok. Nothing special, haha.

Gay marriage got overturned here in california today. Good for them?

I'm actually still at nicks, haha. Hmmm... nick's little brother is out here, pretty chill. Hahahaha I'm gonna get lostt

-- And there are trapdoors That you can't come back from