Some random funny pictures. Major bummed my siggy messed up on the last post, after I already messed up :( I wish we could delete stuff! Oh well, learned my lesson. Going to triple check before I send from now on, :P

^wrote that earlier.

I just got back from carissa's. Its like, 3:24 am. Late. Being with carissa and her friends became so awkward for me. Like. Its really hard for me to relate to them. At all. I fail to communicate. So I feel like a misfit or something. I don't even know why. I'm not trying to sound like some whiner. I'm sorry I did not have a mother and a father that loved me. Or lived in a family with good income. I'm sorry I need to wash my clothes at friends house's (i washed my clothes at carissa's). I'm sorry my dad didn't buy me a nice car. It makes me feel so frustrated that I feel so out of place. Especially after I was just talking about communicating. They can't relate to me, and I can't relate to them.

What the FUCK am I talking about? Am I just venting about being socially inept? Or are they just snobs? Or is it none of this, and I'm just taking everything too seriously? I have no clarity and no understanding.

Life is a vast ocean, and I'm on a piece of driftwood. No compass, no map, no help.

(I wish I could channel angst into creativity instead of boring blogs) --
And there are trapdoors
That you can't come back from