Just a note.. If any of you sidekickers out there have bunny chow.. Challenge me. Hahaha --rebecha

Okayyy.. Like I can't even explain the annoyance. He told me he didn't like how he always feels I'm unhappy.. Well neither do I. What kinda boyfriend doesn't want to talk to his gf on the phone? It's whatever. It just annoys me how he'll blow up about it and send me some text saying I hope u have something good tonight to say when u call. No. I'm not calling. He is bipolar. I swear. I just reread what I wrote and it doesn't make sense to me. Hahaha. Pathetic. Who cares though. Its my blog. Maybe I am high maintenance. I feel like he doesn't give me enough attention. If he isn't going to talk to me then I need someone else to talk to me on the phone at night. I don't wanna sit here alone, bored, and talking to my shithead cat. Also!! Does he have this right to say to me.. "I don't want u calling anyone else"? I don't think he should. He won't talk.. So its kind of his fault. I need to find someone to talk to though.. All my other friends have become preoccupied by their significant others.

I'll start my hunt for a phone friend asap. --rebecha

I don't know what makes me more mad. How he's a hypocritical asshole, or how he flips out when I try and tell him my feelings (even though he told me to start opening up). And just for the record.. If my cat comes to the door. claws on it, and then runs away when I open it again I'm going to kill her. I'm so effin' irritated. I am not fucking dramatic. Urg. If anything he is. Blowing everything out of porportion.. And hangs up cause he says he can't talk.. Then calls 2 minutes later when I'm doing something. I don't even care anymore. I'm sick of having a time-bomb for a boyfriend when he gets drunk. Like can he not see what he's doing? Askflgjhiekfnv grrr. I already know exactly what I'm gonna do. He says he wants me to stop all that.. I will. Ill just not try and talk to him. He can call me. Shit. Then when he gives me crap for never trying I'm just going to tellhim I was sick of the arguments.. And how he said I was too high maitenance. Peace out. I'm sure ill blog soon.. Real soon. --rebecha